Always Forgiven, Never Forgotten | By : A.K.O.Shifting-Shadow Category: Stargate: SG-1 > Slash - Male/Male Views: 1202 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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"Symbiote speaking." I'm using bold to represent the echoing voice symbiotes have when they speak.
"Host speaking.”
-Symbiote speaking to host.-
Host speaking to symbiote.
“I still don’t understand.” Feodore complained as they walked through the village towards the gate. “Please explain it to me again if you have the time. I’m sure the whole council will be interested in what you have to say.”
Malek paused and sighed. “Well I am not due back immediately so I shall take the time to explain and answer your questions. Perhaps I should have taken the time to explain my existence to you before now, but I shall correct that error.” He stated. “I assume the council will be waiting for us by the gate with some members of the hive?”
“Yes, we all wish to send you off for you’ve become a special part of this world and its races.” Feodore replied as he pulled Malek close and laid a gentle kiss on Malek’s lips. “I shall miss you when you are gone.”
“And I shall miss you my love, I enjoyed my time here but I must return to my duties.” Malek replied. “I shall write to you as often as I am able and of course if I have any free time I will try to spend as much of it here as I can.”
“Then I shall wait for you with the memories of our time spent together.” Feodore replied. “Now let us not keep our friends waiting.”
The gathering that waited for Malek and Louis was overwhelming to say the least; at least half the townsfolk had gathered to wish him well and in the shadows were the hive. Feodore spoke for them both, thanking the people and the hive for their support. The gathered people soon drifted back to their everyday lives leaving the council and the hive to witness Malek actually leaving the world. “My friends, before Malek leaves us he has promised to try and explain his kind for us.”
“I must confess I have no idea where to begin for our history is extensive and our beginnings are ‘foggy’ at best. But I will explain what we are to the best of my abilities.” Malek stated as he took a seat on the ground under the attentions of so many. “My race evolved the need to take host’s for our bodies cannot survive outside of the host body, but we did not immediately need human host’s, in fact legend speaks of the Una’s the first ones, the first host’s. We are born to take hosts but we are ‘invading’ creatures and thus we can be rejected and killed by our host’s bodies. Because of this our ancestors had to find a solution. That solution was called the ‘code of life’. This code is your bodies’ genetic structure, what makes you…you. The queen would have intercourse with the host species and mix this code with the code of her young thus ensuring a match between symbiote and host. I do not know when this practice began, it could be as old as my species is for all I know, but I do know it guarantees much more success with the blending.”
“So your ‘queens’ need to mate with the host species before she can ‘infect’ them?”
“Yes. She only needs to breed with one human male, just one and she has the code for the rest of her life.” Malek explained. “This is how my queen, Egeria did it. She asked a male to give her his genetic code which he did willingly. But other queens will not ask they will take.”
“And once this code is taken it is mixed with the code of life that the symbiotes have?”
“Yes, it is a very important part of who we are, without it the risks of a blending would be double what they are today. You have to understand that when we take host’s we become one with the host, we are tied to the host in every way, their bodies become ours as much as theirs. To part from a host is like…well it is almost like suicide since we have to tear ourselves away from the host brain and then connect with another. The risk of death is very high for both symbiote and host.”
“So why do the Tok’ra change host’s?”
“Because we can only prolong their natural lives for so long.” Malek replied. “The goa’uld have a machine called a sarcophagus, it is a healing machine that can halt even aging. But we believe it takes the good from a person, turns them evil so we do not use it, thus we can only prolong our host’s lives for a few hundred years. When they die we would die willingly with them if another did not offer to be our host’s, because we are part of that host and when they die we die on the inside.”
“How many hosts have you had?”
“Many and I have loved them all. They have all fallen to age, illness and torture but they still live within me, for they were me and I was them. As long as I live so do they.” Malek stated.
“How…how do you keep going?”
“My host’s fought to keep me and my brethren alive, they fought to free humanity and I swore that I would live for them and maybe I will be alive to witness the end of the Goa’uld for them.”
“You loved them.”
“I still do.” Malek replied. “Nothing can replace that hole in my heart where they belonged, but they do not affect my love for my future host’s, they are merely a missing part of me and what is left of them, I hold dear.”
“That is beautiful.”
“May I be so bold as to ask you and Malek a question?” Yannis asked as they rode for the town in the distance. Louis nodded and Yannis smiled. “I know Malek is a symbiote, I know that his purpose is to blend with a host body but I don’t quite understand how he does it. Would you or he be able to explain it to me?”
I don’t quite understand it myself.
-You do not?- Malek asked surprised. –But you should, my mind is yours my lifemate. Read my mind beloved, see how my body works.- Malek encouraged. Louis tried to obey Malek but it soon became clear to the symbiote that Louis still struggled to access his symbiote’s mind. The host mind was too chaotic, Louis would have to learn meditation so he could control his thoughts and access Malek’s own mind. –Forgive me Louis, I have ignored my duties as your symbiote. I forgot how difficult it is for human’s to control their thoughts, but I will teach you. For now however I will show you.-
Louis watched as Malek showed all his bonding experiences, he felt all the anxiety, impatience, angst, sadness and joy Malek experienced as he left his old host to join with another. Can you explain it to me? Louis requested.
-I will explain in the best terms I can.- Malek replied. –My body as you are aware is made for blending with another body but what you do not know is how well prepared my body is for it. My body is slim and relatively small. My form has five fins, two small arm-like fins at the front for weak gripping, two flat fins behind the front pair for steering in water and a large back fin which helps me steer and keeps me streamline in water. However this changes when I take a host, the back-fin has no use in the body so it is pressed tightly against my back, my fins are carefully placed inside your head to prevent any damage if I move them even slightly.-
So your back fin is pressed against your back and your fins are well placed to lessen damage? Louis asked. You have very unique bodies. The host commented as he was shown a symbiote’s form. You’re very adaptable.
-In truth we only stay in the water for our young lives since we need specific environments to live, our bodies are adapted to the electrons a brain emits so when we need to be removed from our hosts the Tok’ra have to synthesise the brain waves.- Malek explained.
So my brain helps you live.
-Yes.- Malek amused by the very simple and blunt statement. –Now as for getting to the brain, that is the most difficult part. The brain is protected by the skull and the easiest paths to the brain are also the most dangerous. The head and the back of the neck are filled with rich nerves and thus pain can be extreme. Our bodies have taken this into account. Our heads are small and pointed. My mouth is made up of four points, the points are sharp like daggers. When I am about to take a host I press them tightly together and stab my host, once I’ve broken through the first layer I only have a few moments to get to the brain before my host is overwhelmed by the pain so I must burrow rapidly. Once I reach the brain I have to burrow into the gap between brain and skull, then I must burrow my head into the brain.-
Sounds painful.
-It is, why do you think Goa’uld hosts scream so loudly when their taken? The Goa’uld take their hosts slowly so they’ll feel the pain.-
I hate them.
-So do I.- Malek agreed. –Now I have to get to the brain in moments and then I only have a short while to extend tendrils into the brain, now I must get full control of the brain as quick as possible and for two very important reasons. The first reason is to heal the entry wound, a wound like that whilst small is also very, very painful. I have to stop infection and heal the wound as quickly as possible. The second reason is to numb the pain, I have no desire to make my host suffer so I want to stop them feeling the pain I caused them.-
So your hosts only suffer a few moments of pain?
-I try to make the experience as quick as possible.- Malek answered. –But even I cannot prevent the pain of the initial joining, I can only make it as quick as possible.-
I’m sure you have been doing your best, I know that none of your previous hosts have hated you for it.
-No they have not, still I wish I could stop the pain altogether.-
You know what, I think you underestimate the love your hosts had for you. They would have seen the pain as just the beginning, after all no pain, no gain and for just a small amount of pain they got you and I’ll bet if they were bought back to life they’d willingly suffer that pain to have you again. Taken aback by his host’s statement all Malek could do was to say a quiet thank you.
Louis focused back on the gathered Greek’s who were waiting with amused and fond smirks. Louis blushed slightly. “Sorry, just talking to Malek.” He stated. “Malek just explained to me about how the bonding works and I think I understand.”
“Well don’t keep us in suspense.” Feodore stated with a smile.
“The way Malek explained it to me is like this. His body is streamline and built for water and of course burrowing into the body. His body is small and streamline to make the blending as quick as possible. His face is small and pointed, the pointed part is as sharp as a dagger meaning he can break into the skin quickly and burrow up to the brain as quick as possible. He explained that the rush is due to three important reasons. The first reason is that he wants the burrowing to be over just as quick as the host does, the second reason is because he can heal the wound and the third reason is to numb the pain, he does not desire to have his host in pain, especially when he’s caused it.”
“He really cares for his hosts?” Feodore asked.
“Yes, so much so that he hates the idea of causing them pain, he regrets that there is no way to prevent the pain altogether, all he can do it make it end as quickly as possible.” Louis explained.
“Your symbiote is a very loving creature.” Paris murmured.
“He is and sometimes he beats himself up for things he cannot change.” Louis stated. “He thinks it’s his duty to heal all my ills and teach me everything he knows. Personally I think his only duty should be to be with his host, he doesn’t need to give them anything else, just himself.”
“You love him just as much as he loves you.” Yannis grinned earning another blush from Louis. Malek wiggled sending so much love to Louis that Louis froze for a moment; the host was overwhelmed by how much love Malek had for him.
-You know how much I truly love you.- Malek stated. –I would willingly sacrifice my life if it meant it would keep you safe.- Malek assured. –Never doubt my love.-
I never have. Louis answered warmly. But sometimes you doubt mine. I don’t care that you forgot to teach me something, Malek. We have all the time in the world for you to teach me and to be honest I don’t care if I never learn, as long as I’ve got you then all those lessons can wait. Malek did not answer for what could you say in answer to that?
“Louis has not fully explained what I am, so allow me to add to what has recently been said.” Malek stated after taking control. “As I have already explained I have human DNA within me to ensure that the blending has less chance of failure. Louis has also explained my snake-like body and my sharp dagger mouth. What Louis has not explained is the haste I use when blending. The circumstances of a blending are like this: The symbiote must reach the brain as soon as possible to keep itself alive, but to a Tok’ra that is not the most important reason for our haste, our concern is ending the pain for our host, we rush to the brain so we can take control and numb the pain.”
“So even when blending you are always thinking of your host?”
“Always.” Malek agreed. “My initially blending with Louis is very similar to my explanation. Louis was injured and dying and my female host begged for me to save him, I left her at her word and raced into Louis to save his life. At the time I cared little if I lived or not, my beloved Misha had fallen and I was in a host that wished me dead, but surprisingly Louis accepted me and taught me about what goods about life.”
“If Malek was to leave me now.” Louis stated taking control. “I would know it, because it would feel as if I had lost my arm, no my heart, because that is what he’s become, an important part of me. There is no way to describe what I feel, all I can tell you was at the beginning I wanted no part of it, now I would never be parted from Malek if I could help it.”
“I think I can understand, I know I have not experience what you have nor do I want to but I can see what Malek means to you. He has become a part of you, a part that can never be replaced if Malek was lost.” Feodore replied. “And I know what Malek needs you need and vice versa. Malek needs to return to his people and continue this war against the Goa’uld and so do you, so I won’t stop you. Just remember that when you need me, you know where I am, this is your home now and you’re welcome at any time.”
“Thank you, thank you so much. You don’t know what those words mean to me and Malek. Malek has always been afraid that people would see him as different and hate him because of what he is, I’m grateful that you’ve accepted him as he is and I know he is too. He won’t say it, but he is truly grateful to you and he loves you as much as I do. I doubt any words could express how much he cares for you.”
“The feeling is mutual. Malek is an amazing symbiote, full of passion and love. I am fortunate that I met you both. You should go before I make you stay.” Feodore replied with a fond smile. “And remember to message me often, I will eagerly await the letters.”
Louis chuckled warmly and kissed his lover one more time before approaching the DHD and dialling home. Within moments he was sending his code and with one last glance at his new family he stepped through the wormhole and back home.
“I have news.” Jolinar stated before Louis had even gathered himself.
“Can’t you wait for a guy to settle in before you drop the news?” Louis replied sarcastically.
“You’re talking aren’t you?” Jolinar replied clearly amused.
Malek chuckled as he took control. “What news do you have for me my friend?”
“I have re-read my research and worked out what I was doing wrong, all I have to do is test the drug and see if it hides us from other symbiotes. I have eagerly awaited your return to test my theory.”
“And here I am. Allow me just to put our items back in our quarters and I will then join you in the lab.” Malek replied. “In the mean time you can escort me to my quarters and enlighten me about the theory you’ve come up with.”
“It was more Sam’s idea than my own. She knew that naquadah is almost impossible to hide, so she thought we could just mask our presence. It took some time to find the right chemicals on Earth but I believe I’ve created a mixture that will hide our presence from other Tok’ra. However, I believe it will have to be administered regularly to work but I will not know for sure until we test it.”
“I will gladly help out with your tests, but hopefully you won’t mind if my host and I indulge in a cup of coffee. You are quite welcome to join us.” Malek stated.
“I believe I shall.” Jolinar agreed with a smile. “I confess that through our research both I and my host have neglected to eat and drink for many hours.”
“Then let us eat as well. I have bought back a few delicacies from my lover’s planet, I’m sure you will enjoy them.” Malek stated excitedly as he led the female Tok’ra to his private chambers. “Tell me have you at least been sleeping properly? I know Samantha often spends more time on her experiments than taking care of her body.”
“I have ensured that we have gotten adequate rest, but my desire to find this traitor and return to the Tok’ra is strong and so I spent much of my time in the lab.”
“This will be difficult. Both hosts are connected strongly to this world, they will not be willing to part from it for very long. If I may be so bold, have you considered Samantha’s wishes in this matter? I know that Louis will take things as he goes and he is determined to prove himself worthy to the Tok’ra.”
“Sam is unsure and thus I will be too. I will not make a decision for both of us, but she knows of my love for Martouf and Lantash, I have asked for her to wait, to meet the Tok’ra before she makes a decision.”
“That is a very good thing to do. I am pleased Samantha it taking this so well.” Malek replied. “I know that Louis has found this whole situation…difficult.” He loitered around the kitchen, boiling the kettle, making the tea and pulling out some fruits he had been allowed to return with. “He has a decision to make which I do not think he is truly prepared to make. My position amongst the Tok’ra requires me to be on base for much of the time meaning Louis feels that he must make the greatest sacrifice. But in truth I am willing to make that sacrifice, I would rather give up my seat on the council as well as my place as commander of a base than make my host feel uncomfortable.” Malek confessed. “But Louis believes my position of power is of more importance than him.”
“Foolish host, nothing is more important than our host’s, nothing.” Jolinar replied softly.
“He knows but he does not understand the true depth of what I say. He doesn’t truly understand why I would give up so much power for him, he only knows that I will, he need only say the word.” Malek answered. “But I know he’ll never ask which in some ways saddens me, it is as if he’s afraid I’ll be angry with him or perhaps he’s afraid I will lose my family. I do not know which and sometimes I do not pry or ask because he needs to think on what he knows and make a decision for himself.”
“That decision will have to be made soon, my friend.” Jolinar replied gently. “For if this chemical works we’ll soon be venturing to the Tok’ra base and when we reveal ourselves we will be expected to return to the fold.”
“Not at first, they’ll interrogate us, test us and much more to ensure we really are who we say we are.” Malek replied. “They can’t have spies just strolling in.”
“Of course.” Jolinar agreed. “But those tests will only make the host’s decisions even more difficult. I know that if Sam chooses to remain with the SGC I will remain but I shall miss my mates, but perhaps they too can join the SGC as some kind of exchange programme.”
“That is an ingenious idea. If we can get both sides to agree to an alliance we will not be parted from either side.” Malek replied. “But first we must get rid of the traitor we believe to be hiding within the Tok’ra.”
“I do not believe my friend, I know. There is a traitor.”
“I am not so confident.” Malek replied. “I only have a gut feeling that there is a traitor but I will support you all the way, have no doubts.”
“I have none.” Jolinar assured him. “These fruits are delicious.” She commented after a moment. “Very nutritious and tasty.”
“I thought so too when I first tasted them.” Malek replied with a smile.
“Here you can have a look at our notes.” Jolinar stated as she pushed a pile of paper towards him. Malek obligingly picked up the papers and read as they both sipped their coffees. “The theory is pretty basic and simple but sometimes simple is the best solution.”
“Yes, it does indeed look good on paper, but I am rather sceptical about this, I will not be satisfied until I see some results.” Malek replied. “I do not mean I doubt your theory or your results, in fact your work is very clear and encouraging but I will not be happy until you theory is proven correct.”
“Of course, I do not take offence. I too will be happier when it works and we can track down the traitor. I miss Lantash and Martouf and am eager to be reunited with them.” Jolinar stated.
A short while later and the two Tok’ra were in the lab, Doctor Fraiser stood beside Malek already installing the monitoring equipment onto Louis’s body. “Thank you for your patience with us, Doctor Fraiser.” Malek stated softly as she worked. “I really appreciate it.”
“It is no problem.” She replied warmly. “And please call me Janet.”
“Janet it is.” Malek agreed softly. Janet spent a few more moments checking him over before giving them the go ahead. Malek watched as Jolinar jabbed his host with a syringe and empty the contents into Louis. At first nothing happened, but then a tingling sensation filled Louis’s body. “We’re…” Malek stopped talking much to his confusion since he believed he was still in control. He tried to finish his sentence but Louis’s body would not respond to him.
“Malek, I’m losing him! I can’t feel him!” Louis cried out. Malek struggled against the drug but something was preventing him from reaching his host.
“I can’t feel Malek.” Jolinar stated. “The drug is doing what I want it to do, but it is also doing too much. It is making Malek go dormant, Malek is being forced into hibernation. It is a deep sleep where even his host can’t feel him. We have to inject the antidote quickly. I am so glad Sam insisted on antidotes.”
“As am I, now get the damn antidote!” Janet snapped as she frantically read the readings from the machinery and tried to calm Louis. The host was frantic with panic, Malek wanted to try and soothe the host but he could feel the great sleep setting in, his mind was weak, tired and the desire to rest was overwhelming. “Malek’s readings are fading. Hurry up!” Malek struggled to fight off the sleep but darkness quickly overcame him.
“You believed you could trick me, Tok’ra!” Ra shouted angrily. Misha whimpered inside their shared mind in fear but Malek glared defiantly at the false God. “I should kill you where you stand but you may yet be of use to me. Advisor Goran, you have given me several amusing suggestions, what do you think I should do with this Tok’ra.”
Malek resisted a gasp as he clapped eyes on a familiar face. It was Dorian, the dark skinned host of Thoran, the Tok’ra councillor. “Thoran.” He stated softly bringing the traitor’s gaze to him.
The traitor laughed and his eyes flashed. “No, shol’va, Thoran was killed many years ago, I stole his host and have been playing Tok’ra for years.” The Goa’uld confessed much to Malek’s horror. “I suggest we do the same here, my Lord. But better yet, let us replace the shol’va with a Goa’uld and send her back to the Tok’ra, then we can brainwash the Tok’ra into believing he has not been discovered and keep him close, he will unknowingly supply you Intel about the Tok’ra.”
Ra look positively thrilled at the idea of having a pet Tok’ra. “I will never betray my kin!” Malek spat his eyes flashing in fury, he would have struggled but the grip on his host’s shoulders made sure he could only flinch.
“Oh but you will…” Malek swallowed as the monster hidden in a kid’s body rose from the throne and raised his hand, the last thing Malek saw was the red gem of the hand device glowing before blackness clouded his vision.
Malek! Malek! Louis was pleading, desperate to feel and hear his symbiote. Malek gasped out struggling to regain control, his attempts were weak but fortune struck as the antidote did its job. Louis let out a cry of relief which made both Jolinar and Janet relax. Malek sighed as he felt Louis’s panicked emotions and sent his love and fondness. Thank the Gods.
-I...I…I’m sorry, I…d…did…- Malek tried to say weakly but his mind was so weak he couldn’t not form a sentence.
“He’s weak.” Louis murmured out loud. “He can barely think let alone speak.”
“I’m sorry, if I had known.”
“No.” Louis replied quickly. “You had no way of knowing and we knew the risks.”
“Still, you are not doing any tests today!” Janet stated. “Malek will need to rest. Louis, you are to rest as well and you are to ensure Malek rests.”
-No. I must speak to Jolinar! Now!- Malek protested. –It cannot wait! I know who the traitor is! I remember! I remember everything before my memories were wiped! I know who betrayed me!-
Calm down! Louis protested as Malek wiggled in anger. Can you take control? The host asked and Malek obediently tried to take control only to fail. Tell me what happened and I’ll pass it on to Jolinar.
-I know who betrayed me, I know who told Ra me and Misha were Tok’ra. It was a Goa’uld, a Goa’uld who has stolen a Tok’ra host. It is Thoran or the Goa’uld who would have us believe he was Thoran.-
“Jolinar. Malek remembered what happened, he knows who betrayed him.” Louis stated out loud. “It was Thoran, or a Goa’uld posing as Thoran. Malek is talking very frantically, apparently Thoran was killed years ago and a Goa’uld was implanted into his host, that Goa’uld posing as Thoran is the one who betrayed Malek.”
“Oh my, we’ve had a Goa’uld hiding amongst us for all these years. Now it all makes sense, being a council member Thoran will know all our missions and thus send word to the Goa’uld, but is Cordesh in league with Thoran or just another traitor?”
“That Malek does not know.” Louis replied. “Can we talk about this later? I think Malek needs to rest, not only was he hurt but now he is feeling upset, guilty and betrayed. We can all think on it with clear heads in a few hours.”
“You are right. I will leave you and Malek to rest.” Jolinar agreed quietly.
Louis frowned as the woman left with distress written all over her face. You should rest too Malek. We can talk more about it later.
-What about the tests? We need to finish them and make the perfect serum to chemically mask our presence from the other Tok’ra.-
We can worry about that much later Malek, we have time.
-That’s just it, we don’t. The Thoran Imposter is sitting on the council he know the whereabouts of every Tok’ra operative and every Tok’ra base. He must be stopped as soon as possible. I just hope we’re not too late!-
Malek, there is no use panicking about it. We can’t do anything right now, Janet has forbidden any more tests for a few hours and you are clearly agitated and not thinking straight. We will pick up this conversation in a little while. You need to rest and heal.
-Very well.- Malek stated a bit miffed at being scolded like a human child, but he obediently squirmed against his host’s spine and relaxed before trying to doze off. Unsurprisingly it took him some time to get to sleep, his mind was ‘running a mile a minute’ trying to recognise signs of Thoran being a Goa’uld but now he thought of it there was no signs, the Imposter was a very good actor. He was ashamed to admit that if he had not remembered he may have well continued on without any suspicion for Thoran.
That may be so, but you know now and when you’ve rested we will work together to reveal him as the imposter. Louis assured. If you like whilst we rest I can go through Jolinar’s note and see if I can add a fresh perspective to these calculations.
-I’d like that. Your mind often sees things that others do not.- Malek agreed proudly. –And I get the hint, Mer Prinekh. I will rest.-
Despite his anguished mind his dreams were pleasant, he was with his first host and they were being courted by a love-struck Delek. The memories were wonderful and filled Malek with fondness, but despite his wishes to remain in those memories he chose to awaken, Louis needed him.
“You cannot do this! Release me at once!”
At those shouted words Malek fully awakened and took control from his host, in mere moments the two men man-handling his host were on the floor with an angry symbiote stood above them. “How dare you even consider laying a finger on my host! Who dares try to harm us? Speak!”
“How dare you!” Hammond snapped as he raced in and glared down at the two men laying on the floor. The rage in the General’s eyes warned Malek to keep quiet. “How dare you break into my top security base and to harm not only two of my men but two of our guests as well, you will be court-marshalled for this!” Again the men said nothing and Malek could hear the General growl. “Take them away!” He snapped to the guards, before taking a deep breath, visibly controlling himself and turning to Malek. “Have they harmed you?”
-Did they?- Malek demanded from his host as he did a quick check of both his body and his hosts.
No, they just tried to drag me from the infirmary. Louis explained. I think there may be a vehicle and back up waiting nearby.
“We are not harmed but Louis expresses concern about Back-up, he believes there may be a get-away vehicle and more of them.”
“We’ve already apprehended the men and the vehicle. It appears one of the politicians who know of your existence wanted to get you away from base. Trust me Malek if any one of my men helped them they will suffer the worst fate I am capable of giving them.” Hammond assured with an angry glint in his eyes. Malek bowed his head in gratefulness and watched as the man turned and stormed from the infirmary.
“What is going on here?!” Janet demanded as she rushed.
“Whilst I was resting someone came in and tried to drag my host and I away. General Hammond is most upset and I suggest that you do not disturb him for some time, it seems there may have been a traitor amongst the Tau’ri who let the thugs in.” Malek explained. “Of course I cannot say for sure I can only surmise, in truth the only thing I know is that some people have snuck into the base tried to apprehend me and my host and then drag us away to a get away vehicle.”
“They tried to kidnap you?” Janet asked astonished and angry.
“I do not understand the term, I am no ‘kid’ so I was not kidnapped.” Malek turned inwards as Louis chuckled. Kidnap basically means someone tried to take you and imprison you. “Ah, my host as just explained the term, yes there was an attempt ‘kidnap’ both myself and my host. Fortunately it was easily foiled.”
“Good.” Janet replied looking very relieved. “It is good to see you conscious as well Malek. I think Jolinar was eagerly waiting your awakening, she mentioned something about research notes, genius host’s and be back in an hour.”
“I suggest you get the guards to check on her, if the ‘kidnappers’ came for my host and me then they may have also come for Sam and Jolinar.” Malek instructed. He watched tensely as Janet sent the guards off and raced for the phone frantically dialling Sam’s lab. The expression on her face was of relief and Malek immediately shared it. “Is she well?” Malek asked the moment the phone was put down.
“Yes, the guards noticed the intruders and were dealing with them when Jolinar arrived at Sam’s lab, she then proceeded to give them a hand tying up the intruders.” Janet stated with an amused smile. “In fact she was more concerned for you and was very relieved when she heard you were fine and up and about, I expect she’ll be here soon to see you.”
“Then I’ll look forward to her visit.” Malek replied quietly. “Louis suggests I use the time I have left to nap, I will do as suggested.”
“A wise idea.” Janet agreed as she watched Malek walked over to the bed and lay his host’s body down upon it. “I will keep an eye out and so will the guards, do not worry about any more intruders.” Janet assured.
“Thank you.” Malek replied quietly. –Are you sure you’re alright, Mer Prinekh? You sounded very distressed. Did they hurt you?-
No but I think they were perverts. They kept touching me…Louis replied with a minute mental shudder. Malek replayed Louis’s memories and growled as he realised what Louis meant, those fools would have tried to rape his host if they had succeeded in kidnapping them. It’s alright now, Malek, their gone and its over.
-No it is not alright, they would have seriously hurt you Mer Prinkeh. This should not go unpunished I will inform General Hammond immediately!- Malek stood and approached the phone under the concerned gaze of Janet. He picked up the phone and dialled the General’s office. “General Hammond, it is I, Malek.”
“What may I do for you?” Hammond asked still sounding very angry.
“I have replayed my hosts memories and have discovered something very concerning. These ‘kidnappers’ intended to rape my host!”
“What?!”
“I demand punishment for their actions!” Malek demanded.
“It will be done.” Hammond stated his voice a low growl as he realised how much danger his two resident symbiotes were in. “I will add that to the information on the paper work. Thank you Malek.”
“It is no problem General, I just hope this newest information helps you punish those men!”
“I assure you that they will not be getting off scot free.” General Hammond assured.
“I suppose that is all I can ask for and all you can give me for the moment, so I will take it. Thank you General Hammond.” Malek replied a little disgruntled that the men were not being punished immediately. “I must go now, Jolinar and Sam have arrived and we have work to do, I leave this matter in your capable hands.”
“I see you are as displeased as I am.” Jolinar commented as Malek hung up. “This is very concerning, I thought this was a secure base, if someone let them in…we are not as safe as we believed.”
“It is indeed very concerning.” Malek agreed. “We will have to be more alert until this traitor is found.”
“So not only do we have to worry about a traitor within the Tok’ra, now we have to deal with a traitor in the SGC.” Sam complained as she took control.
“Unfortunately that is the way it is.” Malek agreed solemnly. “For now we can only continue as we have. We will continue to try and make the masking serum and testing it whilst remaining on high alert. Bring yours and Jolinar’s equipment to the infirmary and we will begin under the watchful gaze of the guards and doctor Fraiser.”
“A very wise precaution.” Sam agreed. “Jolinar believes it to be a good idea too. I will return to my lab and have the guards there escort us and our equipment back to the infirmary. Until then I suggest you use the time to rest, the last experiment went badly and I do not believe you are fully healed from it.”
“I am well, Sam, be assured that if anything was wrong with either myself of Louis we would stop the tests. Still Janet will wish to conduct the necessary tests before and after the experiments, those tests should prove we are well.” Malek replied. Sam looked far from pleased with his response but it seemed to satisfy her to some degree for she left to collect her equipment.
I think you worried a lot of people yesterday, I know you worried me.
-I am sorry Mer Prinkeh.- Malek stated. –I wish I could change what happened, but I had no control. I know it does not seem like it, but I believe yesterday we were fortunate, the contents of the serum somehow disrupted the brainwashing and allowed me to remember. I do not know how to explain is Louis, but somehow I feel complete, before I was so full of doubt and confusion, I knew I could not return but not why, now I know why. It is as if my eyes have been opened.-
I’m glad something good came out of yesterday’s situation but please don’t try to make a habit of it! Louis replied reluctantly amused and relieved. And it’s good to hear you’ve sorted your mind out, I must admit you’ve had me worrying for some time. You’ve been feeling so much confusion, some days you believed Jolinar when she claimed there was a traitor and other days you’d laugh it off.
-I know, I feel guilty for it now for I know now that there is indeed a traitor. I can only hope that the Goa’uld disease has not spread through my brethren I do not think I could live with myself if more have been lost since my amnesia.-
You cannot fault yourself Malek, you did not remember. We can only hope the imposter hasn’t set any other Tok’ra up for the same fate you may have had.
-You’re right! If the imposter had succeeded my host would have been unwillingly betraying the Tok’ra. It would have broken her heart!- Malek gasped in sudden realisation. –I…the fates have played a part sending you at the time it did, if you had not arrived and blown up Ra’s ship…I shudder to think. I am only saddened that Misha had to be lost in the process, but on the bright side I gained another wonderful host.-
The only problem we will have is proving that you and Jolinar are really who you say you are. The Tok’ra will be very doubtful and if the imposter’s influence has spread it will make our mission even harder.
-You are right. I must discuss this with Jolinar, we must begin planning carefully if we wish to succeed.- Malek agreed. –No doubt I will have to recall a few private memories and tell many of my kin about them to prove I am indeed Malek. But most importantly Mer Prinekh we must eliminate the imposter and any potential traitors.-
Of course and I have an idea but I’m not entirely sure if it is a good idea.
Malek frowned at Louis’s nervousness. –Come on Mer Prinekh, I will not be angry at you for any idea you have and no idea you have had has been remotely stupid. I have felt you thinking deeply for some time, mostly you’ve been considering the thought of what if the assassin had reached Jolinar and Sam. Does your idea refer to that thought?-
To a degree. Louis agreed. I thought…well, you and I cannot in their eyes be bonded because you died on Ra’s ship or so they believe. But they would believe Jolinar and Sam were bonded, what if the ‘Ashrak’ got them and killed Jolinar but left a…’Naquadah’ residue behind that allows her to sense symbiotes as well as access her memories?
-It is possible.- Malek agreed. –But why would the Tok’ra not think of us as bonded? Ah! Of course they do not consider the humans as fully advanced and they would never think that humans took down Ra, thus they will never consider that I lived!- Malek stated with surprise. –I think I have worked out your plan, but please continue Mer Prinkeh.-
Well. Sam could ‘pretend’ to remember Jolinar’s memories and know Thoran and perhaps Cordesh are the traitors, she could cause discord amongst the council and make them question Thoran’s and Cordesh’s loyalty.
-That will be difficult, we are brothers and sisters, we are loyal to the Tok’ra first and foremost.-
That is why I said it might not be a good idea. Louis replied with a sad tone.
-No! I did not say it was a silly idea beloved, I only said it would be difficult to achieve but I believe Jolinar and Sam can pull it off. Please continue to explain.- Malek pleaded.
Shyly Louis continued. Well if they believe Sam has Jolinar’s memories and Jolinar seemed to think Thoran and Cordesh were traitors they’d listen to Sam. From what little I could understand, Jolinar is well respected is she not?
-Yes she is.- Malek agreed, pride seeping into his voice as he listened to Louis. –She is as old as Egeria our queen and is considered by many our ‘surrogate’ queen, though if you ask her she will deny it. She has been asked many a time to take up the mantle of leadership which she has refused, she has even refused to join the council or be a base commander, she prefers to be an operative despite the respect she has earned.-
So if Sam spoke on behalf of Jolinar, they will listen.
-Yes, they may be a little sceptical but they will listen.- Malek agreed.
Well, their attention will be mostly on Sam then would it not?
-Leaving us relatively unguarded and free to find proof that Thoran is an imposter and Cordesh a traitor.- Malek stated. –My beloved host, I am so fortunate to have come upon you, you make me proud each and every day. That is an absolutely brilliant idea, you are my treasure and you will be an asset to the Tok’ra.- Louis flushed under such praise and Malek chuckled as he ‘hugged’ Louis with his mind. –My wonderful, intelligent host.- Malek trilled. –Egeria must have been smiling down on me when she sent me you.- He praised.
Malek…Louis protested quietly, embarrassed.
Malek chuckled before focusing outward as Jolinar returned. “We must speak.” Jolinar scanned his face and seeing his serious expression she nodded and sat on the bed next to him. “Louis has bought something to my attention, something which we should have considered from the very beginning. How we get into the Tok’ra and what is our plan.”
“You are correct.” Jolinar replied with realisation. “I have been so focused on the serum that I have not even considered what we plan to do when we approach the Tok’ra.”
“I believe Louis has worked out that part of the plan for us.” Malek stated. “I will allow him to explain since it is his idea and he deserves all the credit.” He added fondly.
Louis blushed when he was given control and was being stared at expectantly by Jolinar. “Well…” He started a little nervously before coughing and gathering himself. “Looking at Malek’s memories you are a person of great importance to the Tok’ra.” Jolinar merely nodded. “Well from what I understand what you say carries some weight. My idea was this, what if the ‘Ashrak’ did indeed get to you? What if you supposedly died inside Sam and Sam was left with your memories, including the memory of the traitor?”
“The Tok’ra would be hesitant but they would explore the possibility of a traitor.” Jolinar agreed.
“Exactly and it would cause discord through the Tok’ra and the traitor would be nervous. Because most of the Tok’ra will be focused on you the rest of SG1 could split into two groups and follow both Thoran and Cordesh and try to witness their betrayal. Of course I know it’s a long shot since we don’t know what to look for.”
“No Louis, that is indeed a very good idea. You see Louis despite most of the Tok’ra being focused on myself the guards are not, they will be focused on the strangers, you, when you split they will follow and if you can get them to where Thoran and Cordesh are and they are indeed betraying the Tok’ra, the guards will witness it and their views will be the ‘proof of the pudding’? Did I say that right? Or is it the ‘Cherry on top’? Your human sayings are confusing… What I mean to say is that the guards statements will be all the proof the Tok’ra need.”
“But what will we be looking for?” Louis asked. Malek answered this easily by showing a small golden ball. –This is a Goa’uld communication device.- Malek explained. –We do not use them because our signals can be tracked and we can be overheard. You see one of these and you know it is the traitor.- “So look out for a golden ball.” Louis stated out loud for Sam and Jolinar’s benefit.
“Yes, that is the most obvious proof, but there may also be other signs like instructions sent to the Goa’uld operative that they’ve hidden in their quarters. This one may be the most unlikely but sometimes the Goa’uld can be very stupid.” Jolinar explained. “The most likely proof is indeed the communication orb. Look out for it.”
“What do you think of my host’s plan?” Malek asked as he took control once again.
“It is ingenius.” Jolinar agreed. “A brilliant idea and one that works very well, since the Tok’ra believe you died on Ra’s ship there is no other way that the Tau’ri could have found them.”
“Yes, only another Tok’ra would be able to find the Tok’ra.” Malek agreed. “Which is why this plan is so brilliant, Louis thought of this plan by himself and I must admit I am very impressed.”
“As am I, it just goes to prove that sometimes we need a fresh perspective so we don’t miss anything.” Jolinar agreed. “Which brings me to our experiments, why you rested Louis took a look and he realised that I made a slight miscalculation, I would not have noticed it myself but he did! I believe now that the serum is perfect. Once Doctor Fraiser has given us the all-clear I would like to test this as soon as possible.”
“As would I. The sooner we can get to the Tok’ra and reveal the imposter and traitor, the better.” Malek agreed. “Janet.” He called. “We require your assistance.” He stated as the woman approached. “We would like to continue the tests but would like you to give us the all clear first.” Janet looked at them with clear disproval but she knew the importance of their work so obediently set to work ensuring Malek was at full health.
A short while later and the serum was injected under Janet’s watchful gaze. Malek sat under the two female’s gazes and shrugged as nothing happened immediately. “I can still sense you.” Jolinar commented.
“Wait.” Malek instructed. “I feel all ‘tingly’ and my body feels a little numb.”
“Anything else?” Janet asked concerned.
“No. I feel fine and as you can clearly see I am in control of myself and my host.” Malek replied. –Are you well Louis?-
I am fine. Louis answered warmly.
“It seems it is a success. Can you sense me now Jolinar?” Malek asked.
“Hmm…No I cannot, this is really good!” Jolinar praised. “Can you use the host voice?”
“Yes I can use the host voice. But I am more concerned with giving control back to Louis, I want to make sure the serum has not affected Louis and most importantly his ability to control his own body.” Malek stated before handing control back over to Louis, fortunately it was easy and Louis was soon smiling at Jolinar.
“Hmmm it seems we have a success.” Malek murmured. “But if I’m reading these ‘ingredients’ right some of the contents are very potent, which means we need to consider small doses.”
“That means regular dosages if we want to remain hidden from the Tok’ra.” Sam murmured. “We will work on producing a larger quantity of the drug, but before we do that we need to monitor how long the dosage lasts.” Sam lowered her head and Jolinar took control. “I would like for Malek to take control randomly and speak in the host-voice without my being aware, it will help me judge how well the drug is working.” She instructed.
Malek mentally chuckled at the other symbiote’s demands and Louis knew that the symbiote was going to have a lot of fun tricking Jolinar. As Jolinar turned their back on them Malek quickly relaxed his expression so he would be perceived as Louis. “Alright Louis. I think that is everything. I would like you to eat and continue to rest until I’m sure that you’re alright.”
“Okay.” Malek agreed softly. “Malek believes it will be best if we continue to be monitored anyway.” He commented. –It is fun talking about yourself in third person.- He told his host with a mental smirk. Louis sighed but Malek could feel the man’s amusement as Malek acted his part.
“And Malek would be correct. We have no idea about what the drug will do the longer it is in your system so until we’ve got solid data you will not be going anywhere.” Janet instructed. “Now lay back and relax.”
Malek obligingly laid back and smiled at Jolinar as she checked the equipment and read the readings. “Well it seems you’re doing just fine, there is no sign of distress or damage but we’ll know by the time the drug wears off.”
“I hope so, I don’t want a repeat of what happened yesterday.” Malek replied still pretending to be Louis. Jolinar continued unaware of the trickery and Malek mentally chuckled already enjoying the chance to play with their oldest and dearest.
The hours passed by slowly and Malek took every opportunity given to him to trick Jolinar. He had even fooled her into believing he was in control when it was actually Louis. Currently Sam was discussing their missions with who she believed to be Louis when suddenly she stopped and glanced at him. “I’m talking to Malek aren’t I?” Malek grinned unrepentantly at her amused gaze. “You tricked us.”
“I have been all day.” Malek smirked. “So that means this drug lasts at least…eight hours?”
“Yes about that much.” Sam agreed. “Which means this drug is potent and strong, it also means we won’t have to keep making excuses to pop off and inject the next dose.”
“Jolinar has once again proven she’s a genius, she’s got it just right.” Malek praised. “I believe if we conduct a few more tests between the both of us we should find that it works. I suggest Janet picks a subject secretly per day for the next few days and test if it is truly a success.”
“Yes we could make it into an education game. The one injected has to sneak around the other without alerting the other to their presence. If we can do that we know it’s working.” Sam replied.
So the days that followed were the most fun of all, the humans enjoyed the show as Malek would sneak up behind Jolinar in the cafeteria and steal food off her plate as she looked away, they loved when Jolinar would sneak up and leave notes on Malek’s back. By the end of the week they had made faces, stolen items, left little clues lying around and poked each other with pens, pencils and fingers. The humans had a bet going on who would win and so far it was a tie.
“Alright enough.” General Hammond ordered trying to be the mature one but all could see his amusement. “What is this about?” He demanded as both Jolinar and Malek stood before him looking sheepish.
“We’ve found the drug we can use to hide ourselves from other symbiotes and we’ve been testing it out. We’ve been conducting tests, sneaking around each other and getting up to mischief. The point of the exercise was to do so behind the other symbiotes back without them being aware. The tests have been a success. We are now ready to face the Tok’ra. I suggest a meeting as soon as possible.” Jolinar replied.
“Then I’ll call SG1 together immediately and you can inform everyone about this plan of yours.” Hammond ordered. “Take a seat.” The man disappeared into his office and suddenly his voice blared through the speakers. “Teal’c, Colonel O’Neill, Doctor Jackson report to the briefing room immediately.” Not moments later the two humans and one Jaffa were taking their seats across from the Tok’ra. “Jolinar and Malek have news for us.” Hammond said by way of introduction.
“Indeed we do!” Malek stated warmly. “Or rather my host does, but before he speaks Jolinar has news of our own to impart on you.”
“As you are no doubt aware, we have been working on a chemical, a serum that will mask our presence from other symbiotes.” Jolinar explained. “What you have witnessed over the past few days is our success, we have been testing it out on each other. One of us will be injected without the knowledge of the other, the purpose was to creep up on the other and to confirm the serum worked. Which is did. So the serum is complete and working, thus we can now proceed to the next stage, the plan.”
“Which is where Louis comes in, I will allow him to explain his idea.” Malek explained before bowing his head and allowing his host to come to the fore.
“Sir.” Louis greeted. “I realised that the two symbiotes were so focused on the serum that they had yet to formulate a plan on how to infiltrate the Tok’ra, I believe I have worked out the plan.”
“Please go on.” Daniel requested.
“Well, the way I understand it is like this, the Tok’ra believe Malek lost to them, they don’t think he survived. In their eyes Malek is dead and suspicion will be on him if he was to return. However the same is not true for Jolinar, she was on the run so she could have found us. My idea is that the Ashrak also found her and killed her, Sam survived and retains Jolinar’s memories. Through Jolinar Sam has learned of the Tok’ra, the location of one of their bases and the traitor. Now Jolinar is considered to be royalty to the Tok’ra, so anything Sam says will be taken as Jolinar’s last words and thus they will be suspicious of anyone Sam points to. Of course they will take Sam’s statement with a pinch of salt but they will still investigate the matter.”
“With me distracting them, you guys can split and chase after two of the Tok’ra we suspect. One of them is Cordesh who is a white male who is slightly aged in appearance, he is the one we’re likely to meet when we go through the gate as he sometimes takes guard duty. The other is named Thoran, his host is a dark skinned male and if he is on base he’ll be with the council when they are called together. You must persue them if and when they flee to contact their Goa’uld masters. The guards will follow you and try to stop you, your job is to get them to the traitors and prove they are indeed the traitors.” Sam added.
“Correct. My plan is not fool-proof but it does a few key things. Firstly it casts suspicion on Thoran and Cordesh, the two traitors will be wary and will most likely want to destroy the base and escape, therefore they will race to their quarters and their communication orbs.”
“These orbs appear to be golden balls that can fit into the palm of your hand.” Sam added. “If…no…When they reach for these orbs we are hoping the guards persuing you will see this and thus be the solid proof we need to prove that they are traitors.”
“Of course, as I said it is not fool-proof and open to debate and change but I believe it may work. Sam and Jolinar are the perfect distraction. The only thing that may fail us is if Thoran and Cordesh don’t get nervous, they may not follow the plan and we will have to find alternative ways to reveal they are traitors.”
“Leave it to us.” Jack assured. “I can be very inquisitive.” The man stated with a grin. “You can trust me.”
“And me.”
“And I.” Teal’c added.
“I think it is a rather good plan.” Daniel replied. “Yes there is a lot that can go wrong but it has a key ingredient, distraction. Of course it won’t work for a long period of time since the Tok’ra are skilled in subterfuge but it will buy us some time.”
“All we need is time.” Jack added. “After all the Tok’ra will not harm us.”
“They will not.” Malek confirmed. “They are most likely to hold us prisoner and move the base before releasing us. They will not kill us or harm us in any other way, it is not in our nature, we live the completely opposite way to the Goa’uld, we do not kill unless it is absolutely necessary and when we do kill we plan it for a long time. Trust me, you will come to no harm and I will speak up and reveal myself if it is necessary to protect my host and you.” Malek explained.
“Then if they won’t harm us, we’ll be fine. But Sam you’re going to have to do some real good acting, they will be interested in you so keep their attention.” Jack instructed. “Cry in a corner, throw a tantrum, do whatever it takes to keep them with you. As for the rest of us, we have to work fast.”
“I can supply a distraction if need be.” Malek stated. “I know them all and I may be able to hold them off long enough for you to catch the traitors.”
“I too can aid with the distraction.” Teal’c stated. “As Jaffa, they distrust me.”
“And if you were to ‘misbehave’, they will follow you first.” Daniel commented.
“Indeed.” Teal’c agreed.
“So you have a plan?” Hammond asked.
“Yes sir. All we need now is the go ahead.” Jack replied.
“One last thing, if I may.” Malek stated. They all looked to him and waited. “As I mentioned the Tok’ra will hold us prisoner and move base if they suspect, so I suggest you deal with anything of importance tonight and perhaps tomorrow.”
“Malek is correct, we may be gone for some time.” Jolinar warned. “So any unfinished business must be dealt with as soon as possible.”
“Very well. You have two days to finish anything you’ve started. I expect you ready and in the gate room at 0800 Wednesday morning.” Hammond instructed. A chorus of yes sirs answered him. “Dismissed.” He stated warmly as he watched them leave.
-I’m finally going home.-
Yes you are. Louis agreed. Malek…
-Yes, Mer prinekh. -
I’ve come to a decision. When you can finally return to the Tok’ra, I want to stay there with you.
Malek paused quite nervous, he wanted to return but not if it made his host unhappy. –Are you sure?- He asked.
Yes Malek. My place is with you and your place is with the Tok’ra. I want to go with you and I want to meet your family and friends.
-But what about Earth.-
There is nothing here for me, Mer Prinkeh. Louis stated using the endearment for the first time. I only have the SGC, the staff and my job. With you I have everything, a family, a friend, a lover and a job kicking Goa’uld ass.
-But what about the SGC what will they do when they lose you? Don’t you want to keep you friends?-
I won’t lose them because I’m with the Tok’ra, I can always visit them like we visit Feodore. It is not like I will be cut off from them.
-No, I would never cut you off from them. I just want to make sure you understand what you’re saying. After all we will visit regularly but for the most part we’ll be cut off, we’ll be undercover or we’ll be on a base.-
I know that it will be difficult but I’m ready and I’ve made up my mind. I want to stay with you with the Tok’ra.
-I don’t know what to say.- Malek murmured overwhelmed.
Just say yes, Malek. I’ve already made up my mind, you really have no say. We’re going and that’s it.
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