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Reviews for With Spit and a Prayer

By : Refur

From angeljade on February 23, 2007
After getting so caught up in this story, I've become emotionally involved with the characters. It's so nice to see a glimmer of hope. I love angst, but a bit of hope thrown in now and again makes it so much more addictive. Will be interesting to see if it lasts. Excellent as always!
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From ANON - From across the Pond on February 23, 2007
Aha! Dean's finally found a way of trying to solve things. Finally a (still tiny) flutter of hope has entered the pool of angst that this story has been ever since the beginning (which I liked it for; do not missunderstand me :-) ), and I am hoping that, however difficult and intense it will most likely be, it will lead Sam to get at least some of his old spirit and intelligence back. And that it will lead the brothers to at least normalize their relationship again.

You've got my full attention with this! I'm deeply curious if the psychiatrist will be able to help... and if Sam will let him...

My gratitude for the speedy update, and until next time!

P.S.: It's a mystery to me why I hadn't seen your story on the Livejournal-Wincest board before... I'v scanned through that one several times already, but still... I'll continue to read this story in here now though, as I somehow feel that the grayish colourscheme of this website is more fit to the atmosphere of the story ;-).
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From ANON - Starflow on February 23, 2007
Ah. I have to commend you on letting the story go this way - a lot of people would have fallen victim to the old 'love conquers all, nothing else is needed' scene. I never doubted your judgement on that, though. After all, it would have killed everything you've built so far. Anyway, you didn't fall for that, and let this happen - time apart, acknowledging the need for help, no irrationally bold moves. I'm impressed. I'm actually looking forward to what you throw into the mix next time.

Your style never ceases to impress me, either. It's quite unique, both refined and strangely maniacal... At any rate, yet another satisfactory chapter and I'll be back next time.
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From ANON - From across the Pond on February 20, 2007
... *sits silently staring at the computer screen*...

This is beyond tragic. Sam believing he needs to sacrifice himself for / to Dean, that he needs to make himself worthy of having a brother like Dean again... Even after everything that has happened he still can't and won't turn his back on his big brother, which is beautiful and deeply tragic both at the same time.

I still don't really understand why Sam lets Dean re-enact the demonic rape, and even wants him to (actually in a way I do, bu then in another way I don't; can't really put it into words...). I still don't really understand why Dean has started to believe that it was actually him, and not the demon, who wanted to rape Sam, and even "rapes" him 4 extra times (!!!!). The way things are now, there doesn't really seem to be a way out of the mess they're in anymore, as the two brothers just keep walking in cirkles and downward spirals, without any kind of solution within immadiate range. Especially not with the way Sam and Dean are reasoning right now... Even a shrink would need months to try and change their thinking pattern...

All to say that I'm more than curious now about how things will proceed. It would seem that Dean leaving Sam will evoke some kind of "big turn" within Sam, will get him to think things over again, and thus figure out the true nature of the situation / of what happened, through the shock of his brother's sudden abscence.
Then again, considering the main tone of the story, it might as well make him sink even deeper into the ever deepening quicksand he's struggling in, slowly leading everything to a tragic ending...

One little light in the tunnel: at least the demon's been sent back to hell.

Sadly it didn't release Dean and Sam from theirs (yet?)...

Thank you once again for writing. Congratulations on maintaining the good quality of your writings, and I will certainly be back to read what's next!

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From ANON - Starflow on February 19, 2007
What a cliffhanger ending... Jeez, I really am speechless again. I'm supposed to have a dentist's appointment, and here I am wondering what to write in a fanfic review, instead.

The pacing really doesn't work for me as well as it should, but I think I'm getting used to that now. Because the story itself, the idea, your style, and the absolute emotion you manage to cram into it just takes my breath away. This chapter was so very full of despair again that I forgot what I was going to say in the review. Sam's completely broken and Dean's shattered, and everything's so entirely upside down. All I can think about is that you really have an amazing story going here. Please take care of it to the end. Because it's one of the best fanfics I ever came across and I sure as hell am going to be back to read more.
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From angeljade on February 18, 2007
Dean's emotions as he's holding that gun are just outstanding. I was so moved by the way you've written this chapter. I swear the story gets more and more heartbreaking every time I read it. I'm going to need serious therapy. Great ending to this one. I think time apart, whether brief or extended, is what they need at the moment to find some perspective. Loved the reappearance of the demon, it was definitely important to have some closure in that department. The way Dean reacted was spot on. All in all, excellent chapter!
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From on February 18, 2007
This was a fantastic chapter! I almost started crying when Dean was going to kill himself! ;_; Poor Dean!

Anyway, I must ask, are Dean and Sam going to actually get together? Or are they going to return to normal, brotherly love? (I'm hoping for the former lmao)

-Emilia
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From ANON - Starflow on February 17, 2007
Holy hell...that really was a good chapter. Although I'm still sceptical about the pacing and timing of these events, I have to compliment and praise you for this chapter that left me gasping for air like a fish on sand. You captured Dean's emotions so fully, and Sam's were well presented too, I just feel exasperated now that I've finished reading. Quite devoid of emotion. All that remains is a burning wish to see what happens next.
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From ANON - From across the Pond on February 16, 2007
No, scratch that last comment there, because I don't even know anymore if that is even the point for Sam: rather or not Dean wanted and wants to rape / take him.

So never mind what I said there. I know as little about what's happening as the brother do obviously ;-).
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From ANON - From across the Pond on February 16, 2007
Phew, ehm... I'm completely lost now what Sam's actually trying to do or why Dean is letting it all happen or... Lost in a good way though. In a way that makes me utterly curious about what's coming next and how (or if...) the two brothers are going to get out of this mess.

It's quite painful to read all this (again in a good way though), but you write it so well that I just can't stop.

So keep it going, and I'll follow the lead :-).
But please, somehow Sam will have to find a bit of his old self again and get a better grip on the situation. He's way too intelligent to keep loosing it like that, to continue not being able to figure out what's happening to Dean in those nightmares or that Dean really didn't and doesn't wanna rape him...

Well, let's just wait and see, huh?
Thank you for this chapter and until next time.
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From angeljade on February 16, 2007
Wow. That was so tense and uncomfortable and heartbreaking...and amazing! I feel so sorry for Dean right now. They're both lost, but he's trying so hard to make things right and it seems as if he's fighting a losing battle. *sigh* I do love a bit of angst. Great chapter!
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From ANON - Starflow on February 13, 2007
Well, well... I am tempted to say I saw this coming. Ever since that kind concrit, I've been thinking you'd probably let the story go this way. The question is, whether it's too sudden or just right. I think I'll wait a little more before I form an opinion.

Nevertheless, intense chapter. The style is awesome as usual, and I can't wait to see more.
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From AngstLovesWincest on February 13, 2007
Two words: Fucking. Hot. *fans self* Wow. I loved the emotion that throbbed through this entire thing. I love your Sam. He's just so.. broody and I love it. I love the fact Dean's all against this, and that he can't let Sam leave. And I'll admit, you were a lil' mean ending it where you did, but I love this all the same. I'm eagerly anticipating the next installment.

.Psychotic.
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From angeljade on February 11, 2007
Latest chapter does not disappoint! I really sympathise with Dean's dilemma. And poor Sam's so mixed up! It's seriously addictive stuff, as always I eagerly await the next chapter!
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From ANON - From across the Pond on February 11, 2007
Again with the "WOOOOOOOOWWWW!!!!! WOW!!!!"

What on God's earth has gotten into Sam? I would think that he wants Dean to have sex with him again (the brutal way) to try and find out for sure if it was actually Dean wanting to rape him, or a demon after all... but I am not sure at all about this suspision of mine.
Now, what's for sure is that at the start, at the moment of the actual rape, Dean really didn't want it to happen. However after all these chapters, I'm starting to think that this might not be the entire truth anymore as well. Is it still the demon and what the evil bastard did, haunting Dean, or does Dean actually and really WANT to be with his brother (albeit in a non-rapist way then) / have sex with him?

Man, I'm so confused about where this is all going, but then again that's probably your intention AND what keeps coming me back for more. So well done once again for keeping me / us hooked.

I'm hoping that in the next chapters these matters will get cleared up at list a little... I guess I've always known that it would come to Dean and Sam returning to / reliving the rape... and see what it does to them at the time being. Will some of the answers they (and I) need be found this way?

The next chapter might tell...

My sincere thanks for writing, and until next time.
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