Confusion

“Max?”

She looked up and met his eyes, “Uh wh-what was the question?”

Alec spoke slowly, “Did you just say you love me?”

Fuck, fuck, fuck! Way to go Max! What are you going to do now? Think! Once again she met his gaze, his eyes staring intently into hers. She bit her lip hoping to hell he would believe this. “Uh you, I mean... well it was incredible. You were incredible.”

Alec let her go and took a step back. A flash of hurt coloured his face. Of course. Why would she mean it any other way? He covered quickly; licking his lips he met her gaze and smirked. “What can I say? I’m a God.”

Max let go of the breath she hadn’t known she’d been holding. Slapping his chest she smiled, “Ass.”

He laughed, pulling her close, “You say so all the time.”

“I’ve never said- name one time!”

“Every time we have sex, sweetheart.”

“I’ve never-“

“Really? What about every time you scream ‘Oh god, Alec, Oh god Alec! Alec! God!”

She cut him off with a kiss, pulling away she smirked, “You talk way too much.”

“Just proving a point, darling,” he smiled.

She laughed, “Whatever Alec”

Hopping up she pushed him underwater and quickly swam towards the stairs. As she reached them she felt a pull on her leg and went under. She kicked her legs and Alec let so. Swimming up to the edge she turned to a smiling Alec. “You’re an asshole!”

“You started it Maxie.” He moved towards her.

Max began retreating to the shallow end of the pool. “Afraid Maxie?”

Hands on her hips she glared, “of you? Hardly.”

Walking towards her, he smiled a predatory grin noticing every step forward he took; she took one back until her back hit the wall. “Maxie, Maxie, Maxie,” shaking his head, “always in denial.”

“Am not.”

“Are too.”
“Am not!”

“Are too. You always second guess yourself with me-”

“I do not!”

Ignoring her completely, he continued. “Trying to watch what you say.”

She was about to protest, he raised his finger to her lips, “Let go Max, you’ll feel a hellova lot better.”

“I can’t afford to let go completely Alec.”

“I’m not asking you to. Just with me. You said so yourself Max, you’re not afraid of me.”

“I’m not,” she looked away, the water suddenly becoming more interesting to look at.

She felt his fingers lifting her chin causing her to look him in the eye. “Then why can’t you let go? Why can’t you tell me what you’re thinking, feeling. Hell, what you want?”

How the hell did this happen? Playful now serious? I can’t do this. “I can’t,” she whispered.

Taking a step back he spread his arms, “Why the hell not?”

“Alec you don’t-”

“Understand? You’re right, I don’t. Enlighten me, Max, why don’t you trust me?” he yelled.

“I do!”

“Obviously not if you can’t be honest with me.”

Her voiced wavered, “I can’t.” She turned to leave.

Grabbing her arm, he forced her to face him. “No, not this time.”

“Let go.” She tried to get free, his superior strength held her firmly.

“No,” he took a step forward. “What are you so afraid of that you can’t be honest with me?”

Looking down she whispered, “You.”

He immediately let her go. I scare her? It was a stab to the heart.

She could see the hurt written clearly on his face. “Not you, your reaction.”

His brows furrowed in confusion. She’s not afraid of me? Just what I’ll do. That makes no sense.

She shook her head. “If I’m honest,” fuck how do I say this? “I don’t want to ruin this...I... you’re my family Alec. You’re my best friend and... You’d be freaked out.”

Her family? “Max, unless it’s a threesome with Mole you want,” he shuttered at that thought, “You can’t freak me out. Well anything sexual with Mole-“

“I love you!” she shouted, effectively cutting him off.

Wait, what? Does she? No, she considers me her family. Of course not. Keep dreaming Alec. He let out a breath. “Maxie, I love you too, that doesn’t freak me out, I mean you’re my family too and-”

Grabbing his hand she looked up. It’s now or never. “No, I.” Her hands were shaking.

“You’re hands are shaking, come on,” thinking she was cold he led her to the stairs. Once out he wrapped her in a large soft towel. Wrapping a towel around himself he moved his hands up and down her arms, “That better?”

Shaking her head, “I lied.”

“What?”

“Earlier, after we...” gesturing her hand.

“Had sex?” he filled in for her.

“Ya, when I said that I...” Why is this so hard?

“When you said sex with me is incredible?”

“Yes.”

“Geez Max,” he frowned.

“No, no. I didn’t lie about that. I mean it was...it is incredible-“

He took her hand and smiled, “ok breathe Maxie. What is it that you lied about?”

Taking a deep breath, she licked her lips. Max you can do this. You’re a tough, kick-ass transgenic female. “When I said that I loved you, I didn’t mean it that way.”

What? Confusion covered his face. “I know, you said-”

“I said it because I meant it. I mean I love you. Not as a friend or because you’re my family...I want you. I don’t know how it happened but I’m in love with you.”

All colour drained from his face. Did she? She loves me? Please tell me I’m not dreaming.

She managed to look at him and saw his face pale. Shit. Why did I have to say anything? Way to go Max, you ruined everything. She turned and picked up her clothes and pulled them on. “Alec, I’m sorry just forget I said anything. I shouldn’t have.”

He was speechless. She loves me. That is when he noticed she was pulling her shirt over her head and leaving. No. “Max!”

She stopped dead in her tracks, afraid to turn around, already on the verge of tears. “Alec, seriously, I already feel like a fool-”

Walking towards her he spun her around and pulled her into a bruising kiss. He pulled back when she did not react. “You have no idea how long I’ve waited to hear you say that.”

“What?”

He smiled as he heard her catch her breath. “I love you Maxie.” He leant down to kiss her. That was when her fist connected with his cheek. Reeling back he touched his face, “What the hell!?” he shouted.

She hit him again, this time in the stomach. “You stupid, fucking bastard!”

“Again, what the hell?!” Fending off further blows he grabbed her arms, forcing them behind her back. “Enough,” he yelled as she continued to struggle.

“How fucking dare you! You go on preaching about how I should let go, be honest? Now you say you love me? You, you hypocritical dick!”

He rolled his eyes. Women. “Calm down.”

“I will not-”

He cut her off with his lips in a searing kiss. When she gasped he pushed his tongue in her mouth battling for dominance in an all tongue and teeth war. Pulling away when air was needed he let go of her arms. She hit his arm. “Max,” he warned.

“You cannot do that to shut me up again!” she poked him in the chest.

Laughing, he grabbed her arm and pulled her to him, “What are you going to do about it?”

“I’ll kick you’re-”

He kissed her again. Asshole, she thought as she melted into his kiss. She wrapped her arm around his neck and pulled him closer. He pulled back, smirking at her flustered appearance, “You gonna kick my ass now?”

She rolled her eyes, “Do you want me to? I mean I did have something a little more fun in mind...”

She pushed him against the rock covered wall and dropped to her knees.

Raising a brow he smirked, “like...”

She began to lay kisses right about his towel. Her tongue dipped into his belly button.

“Fuck,” he gasped.

She smirked, “Oh we’ll get to that, keep still.”

His fingers dug into the stone, but he obeyed. Licking the contours of his chiselled abs, she fingered the towel slowly pulling it lose. She laid a kiss on his newly bared erection, “Fuck,” he gasped.

Suddenly she stood, towel in hand and began drying her hair as she walked away with a satisfied grin. “Thanks for the towel smart aleck.”

Alec, his eyes wide with the sudden realization of what has just occurred, shouted after her, “Tease!”

Max turned around slowly and continued to walk backwards towards the door and smiled, “Oh you love it!”

Blurring towards her he picked her up and pushed her against the wall, her legs automatically wrapped themselves around his hips. “Maybe I do, but I think it’s your turn now.”

She smiled, “Is that right? I think maybe it’s about time you showed me just how much you love me.”

“With pleasure.”