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All Over Again	By : OUTOFMYMIND Category: 1 through F > Big Time Rush Views: 3216 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 1-What Happened to Us?
- 2-The Fight
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So there was an error with the last chapter, but I fixed it. Sorry for the confusion.
Chapter 2: The Fight
Kendall sighed as he made his way to the school. James had called him and asked him to pick up the kids from school. James said he was busy doing something and didn't have time to pick up the kids. Kendall had agreed to do it. He hadn't seen them in awhile and wanted to spend a few minutes with them at least. Kendall pulled up to the school and saw Jake already outside with his friends talking. Kendall parked the car and saw Jake look over at him and jumped up. He ran over to Kendall.
"Dad what are you doing here?" Jake asked looking embarrassed. He had his head down and didn't seem like he wanted people knowing he was with Kendall.
"It's nice to see you too son," Kendall said loudly.
"Shh," Jake said pressing a hand to Kendall's mouth. He looked around for anybody he knew. He relaxed when he saw nobody looking.
"Glad to embarrass you son," Kendall said pulling Jake's hand from his mouth. "Where are the others?" he asked looking around for his other three kids.
"Like I know," Jake scoffed, "what are you doing here? Where's pops?" he asked.
"He is busy with something and asked me to come pick you guys up," Kendall said looking at Jake. He wondered how Jake had turned into this kid. He had been so loving and caring at one point.
"Oh my god did you have to park so close to the school?" a voice behind Kendall asked. Kendall turned around with a small smile on his face. He saw Kyle and Adam standing behind him, they too, like Jake, looked embarrassed.
"Yes, because I know it embarrasses you boys when I do so," Kendall said smiling at his three sons, "where's your sister," he asked looking around for Leora.
"I don't know," Adam said looking around as well.
"Dad?"
Kendall barely had time to react before he felt a pair of arms wrap around him in a tight hug. He smiled and hugged his daughter. At least one of his kids were happy to see him. He loved Leora and was glad she was still happy to see him. He hoped his boys would come around eventually.
"Hey Ladybug," Kendall said smiling at her. Leora let go and smiled up at Kendall. Kendall couldn't help but return the smile. Leora was always happy to see him. He was glad for that.
"Can we go?" Jake asked as he got into the back seat of the car with the other two. Kendall shook his head at his sons behavior. They were all so embarrassed to be seen in public with him. He didn't know why either. They had all loved him at one point.
"Have I told you you're my favorite Leora?" Kendall teased as he opened his car door.
"Yep," Leora said, "it's because I'm better then the three buffoons I call brothers," she said smiling.
"Hey now be nice," Kendall said as Leora walked around the car and got into the passengers seat. Kendall and Leora talked all the way home. The three in the back started to argue about something that had happened in school today. "Hey you three," Kendall said cutting in. They all stopped and looked up at Kendall.
"What?" they all asked.
"Knock it off," Kendall said. The three shook their heads and stopped talking.
"Jake got into UMD," Leora said.
"Is that so?" Kendall asked looking in the rearview mirror at Jake who had his headphones in. Kendall sighed and shook his head.
"Yeah, he got his letter last week," Leora said for her older brother.
"Well that's good," Kendall said. He sighed and pulled into the driveway that had once belonged to him. The three in the back all scrambled to get out. Kendall got out as well. "It was nice," he started but heard the front door slam as they walked inside. "seeing you boys," he said to himself. Kendall looked at Leora who was standing by the passengers side of his car.
"Dad," Leora said softly. Kendall looked over at Leora. He saw the hurt in her eyes. "Are you and Papa really getting a divorce?" she asked tears in her eyes.
"Oh Ladybug," Kendall said softly. He moved around the car to give Leora a hug. He knew this was hard on her. She didn't like to see him and James fighting. She didn't want them to get a divorce. "Leora these things happen. People grow apart and we just need to do this. This doesn't mean I am not gonna be here for your or your brothers," he said hugging her tightly.
"I don't want to not see you anymore," Leora said hugging Kendall tight.
"As soon as I get my own place you can come visit me all you want," Kendall said looking down at Leora. Leora smiled softly and nodded her head. She let go of Kendall and headed inside. Kendall was about to get in his car when he heard an odd noise in the back yard. He went to investigate. He saw James with a wood chipper and a pile of his things. James was throwing his things into the chipper. "You know if I knew you were destroying my things I wouldn't have agreed to pick up the kids," Kendall hollered. James stopped what he was doing and turned the chipper off.
"Well I figured it's my house now and I don't want anything here that reminds me of you," James said.
"You could've asked me to come get my things instead of destroying them," Kendall said looking at James.
"I got the house and the things in it while you hit the road," James said, "this is all mine," he said.
"What are you even doing to the yard?" Kendall asked looking around. The yard was a mess with plywood and gardening things.
"I am working on making it a show piece for my landscape design," James said matter-of-factly.
"Oh so you're finally going to use the degree I paid for you to get after how many years of sitting on your ass?" Kendall asked looking at James.
"Look I never asked for you to do that," James said.
"I know that," Kendall said, "what upsets me is you got the degree and then did nothing with it," he said looking at James.
"We had four kids what was I supposed to do," James asked annoyed.
"Lots of people balance family and work James," Kendall said.
"Yeah, well when you're working full time at the store I had to raise the kids," James said annoyed.
"Well how else were we going to pay the bills? I couldn't sit around and wait for you to do something," Kendall said.
"Oh right because I was a lazy ass," James snapped, "I was raising the kids you didn't have time for," he said stepping over to Kendall.
"I made time for the kids," Kendall said.
"At first but where have you been these last few years?" James asked.
"It's hard when you work full time and have to pay bills and buy things for the kids, especially when you have a lazy ass husband at home," Kendall said glaring at James. He hated that it had come to this. He had once been so in love with James. He didn't know how it had gotten to this point.
"Well that's ok because in three weeks when the divorce is final you won't have to do anything for me anymore," James said.
"Whatever," Kendall said.
"There's you're problem right there," James said pointing a finger at Kendall.
"What are you talking about?" Kendall asked.
"When something you don't like happens you give up," James said, "things got tough and you gave up on us Kendall. I am just surprised it took me this long to realize what a big mistake I had made," he said.
"If marrying me was a mistake then why'd do it? Huh I didn't force you to marry me either," Kendall said.
"I loved you once," James admitted, "but the man I fell in love with is long gone. I can't even stand to be around you anymore, hell the kids don't even want to be around you," he said.
"Shut up," Kendall said.
"Leora's the only one, and I am sure that's because she's clinging to what you used to be," James said.
"Shut up," Kendall said again, "that is not true," he said shaking his head. He didn't not want to believe it, but James was right. Leora was clinging to the old Kendall. She wanted her old dad back.
"No you need to hear this," James said walking over to Kendall. "You are so different from the man I fell in love with all those years ago. I find it hard to believe you're that same person. I am going for full custody I hope you know that," he said.
"You can't do that," Kendall said, "they're my kids as well," he said looking at James.
"That want nothing to do with you," James said close to yelling.
"I gave up so much for you James," Kendall said pinching the bridge of his nose.
"I never asked you to," James snapped.
"I did it because I love you, do you think I would've gone to L.A. if it had been Carlos or Logan who wanted to go? I only went because you wanted to. I gave up my dream of hockey for you and then I gave up the Hollywood lifestyle for you because you wanted our kids away from that," he said shaking his head.
"Oh you poor baby," James said, "I made sacrifices too you asshole," he said.
"Oh what giving up you're singing career? You were pregnant," Kendall snapped.
"I never asked you to marry me Knight," James said.
"Well I did," Kendall said his anger rising. He was so mad right now. He couldn't stop the next words that came out of his mouth. "You know I wish I had let you leave that day we found out about Jake," he said. James' jaw dropped but he recovered quickly.
"Me too, because then I wouldn't have wasted eighteen years of my fucking life on you," James said regaining his composure.
Kendall turned on his heel and stormed out of the yard. He couldn't believe James right now. He really wished he had never ran after James that day. He walked over to his car and got in. He started driving. He didn't know where he was going and nor did he care. He just wanted to get away.
Daylight faded and soon it was night time. Kendall found made his way to Logan's. He walked up the front step and inside. He saw Logan with his phone pressed to his ear talking to someone frantically.
"Hold on he's here," Logan said. He lowered the phone. "Where the hall have you been Leora called me telling me you took off after a fight with James. She was scared for you," he said.
"I went for a drive," Kendall said shrugging.
"Where did you go?" Logan asked. He picked the phone up. "He's fine I will have to call you back," he said to whoever was on the phone. He hung up and rounded on Kendall. "Where did you go?" Logan asked again.
"I don't know I just drove," Kendall said shrugging, "was that Leora?" he asked.
"No but she called an hour ago asking for you again. Why didn't you answer your cell," Logan said.
"I just needed to clear my head and I guess my cell died," Kendall said pulling his cell phone out of his pocket. Kendall yawned and looked at the time. It was late at night.
"Call your daughter," Logan said tossing the phone to Kendall. Kendall nodded his head and called Leora's cell phone knowing she'd still be awake.
"Hello uncle Logan?" Leora asked.
"No it's me," Kendall said.
"Dad," Leora said, "you're ok you didn't do anything crazy?" she asked.
"I'm fine Ladybug," Kendall said.
"Good," Leora said, "I heard you and papa fighting," she said slowly.
"I am sorry about that," Kendall said looking down at his feet. He then moved into the living room. He hadn't meant for her to hear that but they did get loud.
"I get it you two grew apart," Leora said calmly.
"Yeah," Kendall said nodding his head even though Leora couldn't see him.
"I think papa was right though, I think it's best we stay with him," Leora said sadly.
"Leora did James put you up to this?" Kendall asked.
"No I've been thinking about what he said. Maybe I am clinging to the man you used to be. I mean you're so different now and maybe he's right," Leora said.
"Leora Rose Knight," Kendall said sternly. This was such a change from the girl he had dropped off at home after school.
"I am sorry dad," Leora said and the line went dead.
Kendall looked at the phone for a moment before he finally just broke down. He fell to his knees crying. Logan was at his side in seconds. The front door opened and Kendall heard Carlos' muffled voice but couldn't make out what was being said. He didn't care right now. He heard Carlos walk into the room and felt him kneel next to him and talk to Logan.
"She doesn't want anything to do with me," Kendall managed to tell Logan finally.
"Who?" Carlos asked confused.
"Leora," Logan said and Kendall nodded his head. He had finally lost his entire family. He eventually cried himself to sleep and Logan and Carlos managed to get him to his room. They both made their way down to the living room.
"What happened?" Carlos asked.
"He and James got into it again and Kendall took off," Logan said.
"I know that," Carlos said.
"Let me finish," Logan said, "Leora called me and I sent you out and I guess Leora did some thinking and doesn't want anything to do with Kendall like the boys," he said looking down at his hands.
"That must suck," Carlos said, "loosing your family like that," he said shaking his head.
"It's gotta," Logan said looking to the stairs. He had no idea how Kendall felt. He had never had a family like that. Logan had put too much time in his work to ever have a family and there was only one person he loved and they didn't love him back. That was part of the reason Logan had pushed himself into his work and moved back to Minnesota with Kendall and James.
"What do you think's gonna happen tomorrow?" Carlos asked.
"I don't know but we've got to do something to cheer Kendall up somehow," Logan said shaking his head.
Ok I hope you all like this so far. This is also the first part of a triligoy I started on fanfiction. If you want the full story now, go there. I can be found under teh same penname. I am in the process of transferring some of my fic ehre though.
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