After the Quest

Note: Tsifteteli = Greek Belly dance. Youtube that shiz.

 

So apparently we are something more than friends, a label I can’t define. Lovers?  Xena would never say that, no matter how many times she may say ‘I love you,’ we have no label in her mind. We’re best friends in every way possible. That I am fine with.  We are always friends, first and foremost.  Without that we are nothing.

 ‘Let’s break here.’ Xena stops Argo and jumps down. Currently a break has nothing to do with rest.  Quite the opposite in fact. She is opening my eyes to a world I don’t think I would have ever known. Lust, passion, raw emotion driven love.  I’ve found there is no one level of love.  There’s the love for your family, for your friends, and for your first love.  I used to think that’s all there was, but what I feel is even beyond all that. She likes it rough, I like it soft. You would think us incompatible but its far from the truth. Every encounter is different from the last.

I stand here, watching her lay down a bedroll. Her whole body manner changes. There’s that confidence she always exudes, but there’s something else. Her eyes look as if they become darker, her face no longer stoic but something softer. She never asks at these moments, and at first I was always a little surprised but I’ve come to recognize the difference between want and need. Sometimes she just wants.

She drops her breast plate but nothing else. We are at a standoff, neither  wanting to make the first move. I know she’ll break, she always does. She’ll tell me exactly what she wants, I’m more than willing to comply.

‘Dance for me.’ Her voice is low and lusty. I cock my eyebrow at her. She says nothing else. Well I guess this is something I can do. I hesitate a little. I’m not sure what to do, I’ve never danced for someone before. Xena crosses her arms in front of her, just waiting. Hmmm, ok. The only thing I can think of is a Tsifteteli.

My arms go up, my hip juts out.  I make sure to look at her as my arms begin to move in slow flowing waves. My hips gyrate to the imaginary music, fingers entice and beckon towards the woman in front of me.  Her arms have dropped, posture stiffened as if ready to pounce. My body moves in a slow circle, hips never stop their movement. I turn all the way and Xena is standing inches from me. I tease her, circling around her body, my fingers dance across her skin.

Her arm flies out, grasping me by my wrist. She pulls me against her roughly, capturing my lips with ferocity.  My body goes slack for a moment, but soon responds without any thought. I feel as if we’re in competition for control. A battle rages between us; I pull at the straps of her bodice, her fingers wrap in my hair pulling my head back. Her tongue trails down my throat. I’m already out of breath and we haven’t even done anything.

She shoves me down, then stands there looking down at me. The anticipation is killing me.  I don’t know what she’s going to do next but I know it will be intense. My mouth is going dry, my body is heating up, I just want her now.

The movement is quick, it takes seconds for her to remove my skirt, head buries in between my legs causing me to scream in surprise.  My hands clench at the blanket below me, my body arching up. Her tongue plays around, never staying in the same place long. It doesn’t last long however and soon her fingers are shoved in me, pumping a hard fast rhythm. Her lips make their way up my body, stopping at my breast, tongue flicking across my nipple.

 It doesn’t take long for me to fall over the ledge I’ve been teetering on, but she refuses to stop the relentless attack on my body. Her fingers just seem to work in a more determined manner.  My body becomes taught, words have forsaken me and I’m left with guttural noises. I’m not sure how long this goes on before she finally stills. Her body collapses against mine, breathing heavily against my neck. I begin to relax again, my head is swimming.  We stay like this for a time, not moving or speaking. I know we have to move on but I’d rather just stay like this. If I’m lucky though, I will not be getting to sleep early tonight.