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Honey
Author: BlueHarlequin
Disclaimer: Nothing of Criminal Minds belongs to me; this is not for profit. No copyright infringement intended.
Warnings: angst, hurt/comfort, UST, drug use
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Hotch + Reid
Summary: Addiction Series 2 - Reid struggles with his drug use and turns to the one person who has never abandoned him.

Spencer stared at the ceiling as he lie in bed and wondered why Hotch was doing all of this for him. The man was going over and above what was expected of a good friend or even a best friend. Part of him knew the reason; Aaron had deduced that Reid needed someone to share this with. The logic behind it was sound and it made complete sense when examined with past events in mind. He looked over at the other man. Hotch had fallen asleep on the couch they had moved into his bedroom from the living room. He had almost offered to share the bed even if it was a little small, but the older man had suggested the couch instead. If Spencer really thought about it, the two of them sharing a bed was an extremely bad idea. It bordered on dangerous, due to the very recent inappropriate thoughts he had been harbouring for the man.
Reid was convinced that these feelings came out of gratitude, or at least part of him was. The other part of his mind supplied things that contradicted that. The biggest being his partiality to the senior agent. Sure he most likely had equal parts of respect and admiration for Gideon, but there was something different when it came to Hotch. Reid wanted to chalk it up to the man being their unit chief. As such, he had the responsibility to make sure his team had the guidance and support they needed. But that still didn’t explain that why, in his moment of need, he had chosen Hotch. There were plenty of more recent conversations he had with Gideon that he could have referenced when Raphael was holding the gun to his head. Gideon would have been just as apt to figure out the clues Reid had dropped in his bible quotation. But he had chosen Hotch. And that was the thought that was keeping him awake.
Spencer knew he would eventually drive himself crazy if he kept re-examining their motivations in all of this. He marvelled at the level of compartmentalisation the older man possessed. As much as he had professed that ‘this had to be separate’ it really wasn’t. Hotch had covered for him at work and had sacrificed part of his home life to help him. That was the one part of this whole mess that bothered him. He didn’t care for Haley, but he knew Aaron did, so it confused him as to why he was here instead of at home with her. Also this was quality time he was missing that he could spend with Jack. Even though he was still a toddler the older man needed to spend time with him. Spencer briefly wondered what would have happened in his life if his father had left them when he was very young. He shut down that train of thought immediately. It was bad enough that he was still occasionally having flashbacks of his kidnapping. He didn’t need to revisit memories of his childhood again as well. Recognising that he was just getting himself caught in an ever growing mire of depressing thoughts Reid shut his eyes and willed his body to go to sleep.
The next day was uneventful and everyone spent their time doing paperwork. Morgan had some good natured ribbing for Reid in the form of teasing him about eating week old leftover Indian food. Garcia kept coming by with peppermints and tea before the young agent convinced the both of them that he just needed some peace and quiet. For once he was thankful for the reprieve between cases. That evening before they left for the day Hotch called him into his office. “Will you be okay?”
“I’m doing fine so far. I think catching up with my case files helped a little bit. It’s just bad when I’m idle and I think too much.”
Hotch’s lips flattened into a thin line. “Reid, you’re always thinking too much.”
“I’m okay. Please go home and don’t worry about me.”
His superior sighed in resignation. “Call me if you need anything. And I mean that, anything. I don’t care what time it is.” The older man stared him down as he debated his answer. Spencer hated being this needy and although Hotch wasn’t smothering him he thought it was finally time he dealt with some of this on his own. But … it didn’t hurt to have a safety net.
He let out the breath he was holding. “Yeah, I will. I promise.” He knew Aaron hadn’t asked him for one but the reassurance caused the tension to leave his shoulders. Reid smiled at him gratefully.
The young agent saw him hesitate for a second. “How are you feeling?” He asked lowly even though they were behind closed doors.
“Not bad actually, I feel like I’m at the tail end of a horrible cold. Because of Garcia, I have a new appreciation for peppermints.” His heart jumped as Hotch flashed him one of his rare smiles, the type that usually only came out for loved ones or in this case when their technical analyst had done something that the older man found particularly amusing.
“Well she is nothing if not persistent.” The unit chief motioned toward the door and Reid followed him out grabbing his bag before they left the building.
The next few weeks Spencer barely had time to think about how he was feeling, the cases popped up one after another. One moment they were traipsing the back woods of Idaho and Reid was comforted by the fact that the unit chief had kept him with him at the station. Then shortly after that they were combing skid row in Kansas City. The young profiler supposed he should have been embarrassed by being propositioned in front of his boss but for some reason he was at ease while they were canvassing the neighbourhood. He was even able to keep a straight face in front of Morgan at a bit of good natured teasing from his superior.
Everything was going well until Frank Breitkopf returned. Then suddenly Reid’s attention was focused on the well being of his mentor. He was also amazed at the amount of things Hotch did during the investigation that were directly against procedure. These past few weeks had awakened him to the fact that his superior was probably not as straight and narrow as he had thought. The unit chief had covered for him and now he was covering for Gideon. For the moment everything seemed fine. Reid understood the elder agent’s need to plunge back into the job. Sarah’s murder and Frank and Jane’s suicide had unbalanced them all. Hotch was tense and the young agent had no doubt that Strauss was behind it. So his suspension after the Arizona case came as no surprise.
Oddly enough, during his days away from the office Hotch called him to ask if he was okay; and he few times he did so were always at odd instances in the day. Spencer finally deduced that the man was calling him whenever he had a more than a few moments away from Haley. The younger man’s heart almost stopped when he figured it out and once again he realised that the reassurance helped. Despite all of disorder around him Spencer was relieved that he seemed to be managing it well. It was almost near a month that he hadn’t taken any drugs. The cravings were under control as long as he watched his stress levels. He wasn’t worried about Gideon until he didn’t show up for their chess game, then his anxiety kicked into high gear.

Milwaukee
“Morgan says you’re worried about Gideon”
“I keep on calling him, he doesn’t call back.”
“He’s probably at his cabin, that’s where he goes when he ... needs to get away.”
(pause)
“Reid I need your head in this.”
“I know.”
As they walked back towards the SUVs after examining the body Reid turned to him. “Hotch, how is it that you always know where Gideon is? Like when we were in Houston with that soldier who had PTSD, you knew where he was after the case.”
The older man regarded him for a moment. “Gideon and I have known each other for a long time. Although he may not be aware of it, I am ... I can always tell when he is overwhelmed,” Hotch paused and Spencer could tell he was trying to articulate something that was difficult, “for lack of better words, it triggers his fight or flight response and he feels the need to get to someplace calm. I can’t explain it, but I think of where I would go if I were Gideon and inevitably, I find him there.” The young man nodded in understanding. He came to an abrupt halt as he heard Hotch mutter softly, almost as an afterthought, “I will always find you if you are lost.” Reid stared at him for a moment in askance. Hotch looked at him sharply, “Reid, I want you to know what ever happens you can always depend on me. Even if I have to transfer out of our unit I will still be there if you need me.”
Spencer smiled in comprehension; at that moment, the statement was enough to satisfy him. Thankfully, they wrapped up the case shortly after that and Strauss’ interference seemed to clarify Hotch’s decision. Even though his answer to Morgan was ambiguous, Reid was sure that Aaron would find a way to stay with the team. The young doctor had also resolved to shove his burgeoning feelings for the older man into the back of his mind. He would examine them later when everything had settled. Now the only thing left for him was to make sure his mentor was okay when they got back to Quantico.

Virginia
After looking around the empty house, Hotch sat in the living room and had a drink. Haley had made her position clear in her own passive aggressive manner. After a few hours of contemplating his options Aaron came to the conclusion that going back to the office would be far preferable to staying at home alone. He wondered if his team had all gotten home and were comfortably sleeping off their exhaustion. Suddenly, he realised that one member hadn’t gone home. As he pulled out of the parking lot, Reid had turned the wrong way for him to be heading to his apartment. Hotch should have known that Reid would seek Gideon out after their talk in Milwaukee, should have gone with him just in case. Calculating the time they got back plus time it took to make a round trip to Gideon’s cabin he surmised Reid had probably just arrived at his apartment. Considering, the volatile state he was in coupled with the stress of the past few weeks, Hotch just hoped he hadn’t done anything stupid. If he left the house now he might be able to make it over there before Spencer did something he would regret later.

tbc
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