Confusion

Max followed Cindy into the crowded bar. The pulsing music throbbed against the walls. Colored light filtered through the thick cigarette smoke. Cindy, not the slightest deterred by the size of the crowd, weaved in and out of the mass of people, pulling Max’s hand along the way. Max allowed herself to be guided, trying to ignore the bodies hitting her. She had promised Cindy that she would try to have some fun tonight; her mind had been elsewhere for the past week. A week since her last encounter with Alec. She was not sure why she was avoiding him, it was partly her idea to start the ‘relationship’, but she hadn’t been able to go near him since that last time. She couldn’t bring herself to be with him. Every time she was with him all rational thought disappeared, all thoughts of Logan left her. She felt as though she was betraying Logan even though they had never really been together. Her thoughts paused the moment she realized that Cindy had dropped her hand.

Cindy dropped Max’s hand and threw a smile over her shoulder.

“Gotta go, boo,” she mouthed tilting her head in the direction of a pretty blonde.

Max gave her a wave and smiled. Turning around, she casually scanned the area until her gaze fell upon a smiling man waving for her to come over. She smiled and headed in the direction of the familiar face.

“I was wondering when you’d show…sit down I just got one,” he smiled holding a pitcher and a glass.

“Thanks Sketch,” she replied as she sat next to him taking the full glass from him.

“Where’s OC?”

“I last saw her with a blonde.”

“Damn…how is it that she gets all the honeys?” He sulked.

Max laughed and ruffled his hair with her hand. “She’s just lucky.”

“Lucky my ass…it’s a conspiracy.”

“Nah… you’re just trying too hard. Let em come to you,” said a familiar voice with a smirk. Alec pulled up a chair and sat next to Sketchy.

“Hey man,” Sketchy smiled handing him a beer.

“Thanks... hey max,” Alec smiled.

“Hey,” she replied with a nervous smile.

“Been here long?”

“Not really…you?”

“Just got here.”

Alec looked at Max, she looked confused or nervous. He assumed it was a little of both.

“Alec, what’s your secret?” Sketchy asked.

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Alec and Sketchy had started a conversation about the art of landing girls. Max had hardly been paying attention, she wasn’t aware of what they were talking about. She was more focused on the man sitting across from her. How could he just sit there and act all right as if I haven’t been avoiding him, She thought. Maybe he hasn’t noticed.

Alec could feel her gaze on him and knew that she was elsewhere in thought. He knew there was something wrong with her, but did not know what. He briefly eyed her while still talking to Sketchy. She looked nervous.

She noticed Alec eye her and gave an unsure smile as though she were fully aware of the conversation. She couldn’t do it. She needed to get out. She stood. “Sorry guys but I gotta go…I’m a little tired. I’ll see you later,” she said with a phony yawn.

Alec saw through her façade and Sketchy smiled and said good night. Max smiled and walked off towards the exit. This was his chance to talk to her. He was about to tell Sketchy he was leaving, but Sketchy was already at the bar talking to a redhead. Alec smirked and ran after Max.

Once Max escaped the building, she headed as fast as she could down the street and around the corner. ‘Damn Alec, why’d you have to look so good,’ her internal rambling was cut short, when somebody suddenly grabbed her from behind, slamming her against the ally wall. As her back hit the wall, she prepared to defend herself against the attacker…then she saw his face. “Alec?” surprise robbed her of her anger and aggression.

“What is your problem?” he demanded.

“My problem? You’re the one who threw me against the wall!” she snapped.

“I’ve been calling you’re name since we were in crash.”

“Sorry I didn’t hear you”

He quickly let go of her arms and looked her up and down. “What’s goin on with you?”

“Nothing.”

“You’ve been avoiding me Maxie.” He searched her face for a reaction but all he could see was shock.

“No I haven’t. I just thought that after last week we should just take it slow.”

“Take what slow? Nothings happening. We had sex and you ran off. You haven’t said two words to me since. I enter a room you leave it; I look at you you look away. That aint exactly normal. ” He snapped.

“Well excuse me for feeling a little weird. I cheated on my boyfriend twice with some guy that I can’t even stand,” she yelled.

“Well for a guy that you can’t stand you see to enjoy staring at me,” he saw that she looked shocked and he smirked. “What Maxie, you think I don’t see you staring at me all the time.”

“You don’t know what you’re talking about,” she turned to walk away from him.

Alec grabbed her arm and pushed her against the wall for the second time that night. “No? Then why don’t you explain it to me? Why do you look at me all the time, yet avoid eye contact? Why can’t you just tell me you don’t want to sleep with me instead of avoiding me?” There was no reaction, so he continued. “You know what I think? I think that the only reason you’re avoiding me is that you feel guilty. You feel guilty for wanting me. For wanting sex. I don’t think that you feel bad about cheating on Logan you feel bad for enjoying yourself. You feel guilty because you’re doing something you want and you are so used to misery that you feel that this is wrong-”

“This is wrong,” Max, yelled cutting him off.

“Really? Then tell me you don’t want me…tell me that you don’t enjoy having sex with me.”

Max gulped and spoke. “I don’t want you or sex with you.”

Alec saw the uncertainty in her eyes; saw her swallow before she spoke. He knew she was lying. “Liar.”

“Not everybody falls for your charms Alec.” Her anger returning.

“No. But you did.”

“God could you be anymore full of yourself?”

“Its not called being full of yourself…it’s called knowing you!”

“That’s bull and you know it…you don’t know a damn thing about me so don’t even pretend you do,” she seethed.

“Is that so? Then why haven’t you pushed me way yet?”

Max looked down and realized that she was still sandwiched between Alec and the wall. She grew angry, she didn’t know who to be angrier at; herself for letting Alec hold her against the wall, or for Alec holding her against the wall in the first place. She chose the second one. Before she could react, Alec’s lips crashed against hers, and she swore the world had flipped upside down for a moment. Max hadn’t noticed that she was already responding to him, their tongues dueling for power.

Alec released her arms to grab hold of her head. Max reacted by wrapping her arms around his neck bringing him closer. Alec’s hands traveled to her hips as her hands played with his hair.

After more than a few minutes, he let their heads break apart, but kept his hold on her-their bodies pressed up against each other and still heaving.

He expected her to pull away.

“Tell me you still don’t want this,” he stated in a quiet voice.

The moment he kissed her, she knew that this is what she wanted. As she caught her breath, she pulled him closer.

Max’s hands were fisted in his jean jacket, yanking him closer as she wrapped one leg around his hips. Alec tightened his grip on her upper arms and bent to kiss her soft lips again.

“My place or yours?” he mumbled against her lips.

“Yours.”

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They had barely made their way into Alec’s apartment when Max was already in his arms. He grabbed her ass roughly in both hands and lifted her up. Automatically, Max wrapped her legs around his waist, and he groaned as her heated core rubbed against him. He kicked the door closed and pushed her against it.

Max found herself against a wall for the third time that day as Alec used the leverage to grind against her. The sensation sent shocks through Max. She arched her back, breaking the kiss. Alec took the opportunity to pull Max’s shirt over her head, he then attacked her exposed neck. Max kept her head back as she pulled off Alec’s jacket and tugged at his shirt.

Disconnecting from her neck, Alec pulled his own shirt over his head, and expertly took Max’s bra off with one hand, and hoisted her up higher so that he could latch onto a nipple. Max moaned in pleasure.

Soon, Alec was putting her down. Max felt a few seconds of disappointment before she realized that Alec was unzipping her pants. He pushed both pants and underwear to the floor as Max wondered when she had lost her shoes. She fumbled with the button of his jeans for a moment then successfully pulled them down. Alec growled as Max found his hard length.

Alec once again grabbed Max’s ass lifting her up. Max was already incredibly wet, her eyes closed in anticipation.

She sobered instantly as she made eye contact with Alec’s dark green eyes. They kept the contact in place as Alec slid into her. Max’s mouth opened with a silent moan.

Alec buried his head into Max’s neck as he pounded into her relentlessly. Max realized that she could no longer tell who was moaning now, nor did she care. She dug her nails into his back as she held on for dear life.

Alec shifted his face now in front of Max’s as he kissed her passionately, his pace never slowing. He buried his head back into her neck.

Alec shifted slightly to hold her with one hand, though his frenzied paced never slowed; he brought his free hand between them. Max cried out as he found her clit and rubbed it vigorously. She felt herself on the edge.

She came with his name on her lips, and it was enough to make him increase his speed. His own release was near, and increased his pace even more, thrusting harder, deeper and faster than before. Max couldn’t tell if she was moaning or screaming now. With a final thrust, he pushed them both over the edge.

Alec sank to his knees, both he and Max breathed heavily. Max turned to face him and received a chaste kiss.

“You gonna stay this time?” he breathed heavily.

“I don’t know…I think I might need some more convincing,” she smiled.

Alec smiled back as he kissed her fully. “Ready for round two?”